It has been way too long…

So, I have missed this.  Life along with school has been crazy busy and ( I may or may not have forgotten my password and username for this blog.)

One verse that I keep reading over and over again is this:

“Let your face smile on us, Lord. You have given me greater joy than those who have abundant harvest of grain and new wine.”  Psalm 4:6b, 7.

May I stand confidently in the smile of my Lord and Savior.  My life has been so overwhelming lately that I have not sat and rested in my Savior’s smile. I have not truly sat and been still. But, I know one thing for sure – my Jesus has truly given me more joy than anything this world can offer. More joy than the perfect job, the perfect ministry, the perfect home, the perfect wardrobe, etc.

When  standing still and relishing in my Savior’s smile-that is when I truly experience JOY in its fullest and PEACE that passes all understanding.

So let your faith rise up…

Daily, I am brought to the end of myself. I can’t do it on my own. I need My Jesus. I desperately need him to wash over me until I can’t be seen. This is truly my hearts desire. I become so overwhelmed when I think about being the best wife for Ty. But then, the still small voice of my Savior quiets my soul and gives me hope. Hope in the truth that I don’t have to live this life in my own strength. If I start to live this life in my own strength…I become exhausted, hopeless, and discouraged. I don’t like it. But, if I understand that it is not me…it is Christ in me…that is were i am re-energized, encouraged, and hopeful in My Father’s plans for me.

I am so overwhelmed by the great dreams, My Abba, has laid on my heart. My God is always aware of my heart…and knows exactly what I need when i need it. My devotional for today was just one perfect example. Here are some excerpts:

“Lift up your eyes from where you are and look north and south, east and west. All the land that you see I will give to you. ” Genesis 13:14-15

No desire will ever be placed in you by the Holy Spirit unless He intends to fulfill it. So let your faith rise up and soar away to claim all the land you can discover.

All I long to be as a Christian, and all I long to do for God, are within the possibilities of faith.

I must keep the faith. Because, He who breathes heavenly hope into our hearts will not deceive or fail us when we press forward toward its realization .

I am so excited to see the promises of our Lord to come to pass in the coming years. I know He has many plans for Ty and I as we entire into the ministry of marriage. He has been faithful. Surely He has done Great things…and He is STILL at work!

Captivate My Heart

I take rest and comfort in knowing that my God is at work!

He is at work within me…

He has made me the way I am because He has a purpose for ME…

God doesn’t need me to accomplish anything…

He chose me.

The Lord is really showing me how to love who HE is making me into…

I find myself so upset with who I am and I don’t step back and really look at what the Lord is doing!

Lord, work in me.  Strengthen my faith. Help me to believe the unbelievable. Help me to rest in your arms as I wait for you.

Captivate me, Jesus!

Preparing My Heart for Marriage

Since I was a sophmore in high school, i have been writing in a journal for my future husband. At the time, I had no idea who God’s man for me was. I didn’t know his name, nor his smile. And now, i reveal in my God’s faithfulness.

His name is Tyson James Faulk. And his smile brings joy to my heart.

I can’t thank my God enough. I am so thankful. I love the Lord. I can’t even begin to put words to my love for my Savior. He has forgiven me and he loves me for me. I am blessed. I can’t wait to follow Christ in my marriage with Ty. He is the leader I have prayed for. He is a constant encouragement and a motivator.

I pray this day that I will not become complacent in my relationship with my first love. My Jesus. I pray that I will daily surrender myself before the feet of Jesus so that He might make me into the best wife, daughter, friend, and future mother, i can be with only the help of Christ.

“But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; They shall mount up on wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:31

I seem to spend alot of my time running from crisis to crisis and to be constantly giving my time and energy to others. (which is not bad and I enjoy helping others. But, my Lord wants me to renew my strength in Him and he wants me to be enabled to enjoy the abundant life He intends for me. The key is to wait upon Him.

Jesus carries more responsibility than I do. More people need Him than will ever need me. Yet He was never overwhelmed or inadequate for the task. May I stop and point people to the one who is adequate. I am not saying that I am going to go around not serving and helping…but the focus should be on me, it should be on the Savior of the World.

May I run to him and rest in His arms, that will I rest in His arms He make renew my strength so that I might go out.

However, daily I must go back to His arms and present myself to Him. So that He may work and move through me.

Here we go…

I am excited about this new blog. Forget xanga… word press is where it is at.

Don’t forget to check my about me section.

I learned today that I really stopped journaling because I felt like I was constantly writing the same thing over and over and over again. But, I forgot that I was writing to the LIVING GOD. The God that doesn’t care whether I write one word…He just wants me in fellowship and in communion with Him…why? Because, He deeply loves me. period. I love my Lord. He constantly amazes me with his simplicity. Yet, He is nowhere near simplicity. We will never be able to wrap our minds around him in this life time. How Amazing.

Yesterday, me and ty went to our first hour of pre-martial counseling. I am in love. I love everything about him…from his heart for our Lord and His ways…to the tapping of his pen. We learned that I am an inward processor and he is an outward processor. This is why I must have this blog. Not because, I don’t tell him things…because He is my best friend…but, it is easier for me to write it all out.

Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your nameI will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.

For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths of the grave.

But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.

Turn to me and have mercy on me;
grant your strength to your servant
and save the son of your maidservant.

Give me a sign of your goodness,
that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,
for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

Psalm 86:11-14, 16